Keep it Simple, Sucker

As you no doubt have been able to glean over the past eighteen months or so, I live by a simple creed. It permeates and pervades everything I do. It has buoyed me and focused me. I am not trying to prove however, that I have always been this way. Although I’m sure this is somewhat difficult to comprehend, there was a time when I didn’t give it all I had.

Let us revisit my first year of college.  I would go to class, study, read, attend social functions; the point being, life was simple, and as long as I completed my required coursework, I had no worries. In retrospect, this is the dark secret of a university education. The idea of being “well-rounded” in the Greco-Roman sense might make for an enlightened society, but it also makes for a slew of non-experts. There should come a point in one’s life where a myopic sense takes hold. Of course, it is not for me nor anyone else to judge what this myopia should be directed towards, but it absolutely needs to be directed towards something. And that’s the inherent problem with where my life was at this time.

Upon graduation, I was hired by a company that shall remain nameless, and this cloud of contentment settled over me like a fine dust. I went to work, came home, dined with friends at local eateries, watched sports in drinking establishments, etc. I was not only content in my professional life (as I was resigned to methodically climb the corporate ladder), but also with regard to my social life.

After leaving my former employer and finding my current place of employment, I quickly sank into a semi-depression. I suddenly realized my life could repeat as it had since graduation ad infinitum. So, I slowly started making small changes. I started this web log. I revisited my former love of music and started to reapply myself to the craft. I renewed my membership to the gymnasium. Most importantly, I realized that it was I who needed to make a change if I wanted a change – no one was going to oblige me otherwise.

Why am I shedding light into what could be perceived as something best left unsaid? Because after my Thanksgiving entry admitting that there was a time that I did not give it all that I had, coupled with my first entry of the year proclaiming that I had discovered exactly how I was going to apply myself, I thought it important to connect the proverbial dots. Although my primary interest is to maintain transparency with respect to this web log, a small part of me hopes to inspire with my perpetual narrative.

After weighing myself at the gymnasium, I can say with some disdain that I have only misplaced two pounds since I decided to reinvigorate myself. I have been developing my musical ability, but not to the level that I am capable of. I have been giving it all I have, but have I? In a word, no. I know this because I know there is so much more I could be doing.

In closing, please know that I will try and indulge in some social activity, as one can never discount the power of congregation. Although my general view of being “social” equates to some sort of procrastination, I need to be frank and confess that there will be times when I will be interacting with others outside my place of employment. And in the spirit of “spending time with music could be seen by others as detrimental to my occupation,” by indulging in life, I am honestly giving it all I have.

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